i didnt realize i was shaking until i made food - annies mac n cheese with fresh tomato, garlic, jalepeno, cilantro, and grounded pepper. i hadnt really gotten around to eating today until now. it is extraordinarily good. i was pondering (its hard to type right now) about memory with jana today, sitting on dan's porch (thats a whole 'nother story). its odd how usually you aren't thinking about the majority of your life. i mean, if something reminds you you might come up with a story or even a stream of stories; but really, most of the time you're wandering around having forgotten most of your life. yet at the same time you are this culmination of events in your life - you are this end result of a gene pool and these events. so, really, its like you are your memory.
thus most of the time, you've forgotten most of yourself; even though you're this living representation of everything thats ever happened to you.
