11 dec 2003 thur - 23:02

wow, that last entry was surprisingly coherent, considering i remember having to re-type every third word for lack of control of my fingers. it was good, my freak-out. i cried and puked and hit some asshole, whom i don't regret hitting at all. carrie said he looked totally shocked that i'd hit him. i don't really remember how he reacted - but good. let him be shocked. maybe next time he'll think twice about being shitty to people. maybe he won't feel so invulnerable. i guess i'm glad i got pulled away, i was ready to jump in his car; and i had an immense rage driving me. i might have gotten fucked up but i wouldnt have felt it until the next day and if i had gotten started...well, i have some anger to release and i was focusing it on physical outlash at that point. and i can see where that would turn into a brawl real quickly and neither shaun nor nathan are really in a position to get into a brawl - shit nate just got off of parol.

so yesterday i spent the better part of the day sleeping and being glad i'd puked so that my hangover wasnt too bad. then last night we had our miami report-back session.

i feel better.

oh, and i have a job interview tomorrow.

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11 jun 2004 fri - stuff to take care of

01 jun 2004 tue - quit again again again

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