ok. i think that this is good enough for now. eventually i would like to get a background image of some non-distracting sort, but i'll want to mess around on a computer with photoshop to do that and i dont feel like changing comps right now. so...i had my mind all made up to move to mpls in may, and ponge agreed with my motivations/agreed to move as well. but then i started having doubts and the co-op we have been seeking membership in is looking better than i originally thought. we missed one of the dinners we were going to come to for various reasons (you have to go to three dinners and then they have a meeting to decide to vote people in) and since then when like every co-op person that has come through my line (at the Grocery) has been saying really positive things like that we are their top choice, are we going to come to dinner again?, they are excited about living with us, etc.
and ponge wants to see what summer in madison will bring us. the main reason i wanted to move is because i feel unhappy and lonely and bored a lot. which could totally be the case in any city we move to, but at least in mpls i feel like i could get a job closer to my goals and get my "career" started. that is to say, to get professional experience organizing (part time in college doesnt really cut it) in a city i know with a group i know. its a foot in the door & i feel this time pressure to get a real job with benefits and time off and everything since i want to have children at some point & i want to start establishing a sound base for that to happen. now, where i work now actually offers all those things except for the fact that im a goddamn cashier. not changing shit - the people i interact with are already in the bloody co-op. anyway i want to be working on empowering people and teaching and learning and fuckin shit up. cant really do that by memorizing the PLU for honey tangerines (303) and dr. bronners liquid soaps (5511).
so i feel unsatisfied in my work situation (although i *am* grateful to have a job at all and as grocery store jobs go i dont think you'd find a better one in madison - and i like most of the people i interact with there) and, being really indecisive about where to live, i figured seeking opportunities in a place(ie mpls) where i am at least initiated into what the community resources are was the best source of decision i was going to come up with.
in addition i was (and probably will again) feeling really socially isolated. at least in mpls i have more people...
and if ponge is to go anywhere with his soccer dreams we have to get to some place where other people take soccer seriously - which is not madison. honestly i think he's in for some rethinking of plans, but nonetheless i'll do what i can to get him where he wants to be. yar.
